Bored One Night

I don't really like the pictures that are taken of me but this one saved itself from deletion. Thought I might share it with you.

Noble Beast

I was walking back to the office from McDonald's when I spotted a dog lying lazily on the sidewalk. It was part of a security team tasked in detecting bombs or weapons. People have been very afraid of bombings, especially during the holiday season. I'm not familiar with breeds but I think it was a labrador or something similar. Anyway, I took a picture of him/her (I didn't bother to lift it's leg to check!) because I found it cute.

As I was about to take it's picture with my phone camera, it moved closer to me as if to find out what I was doing. He sniffed at my phone and backed up. Confident that it was not a bomb or a weapon, it lay down on the ground and posed for me. "Make sure to get my good side," it seemed to say.

I took it's picture and thanked his handler. As I walked on, I glanced back to see that it was watching me and wagging it's tail. "Come back soon!" I imagined him say. It's funny how animals seem to act as if they know what we are thinking. Maybe we're simply imposing human interpretation to their actions. But it is hard to deny that animals have basic emotions such as joy and sorrow.

I've been around dogs for most of my life. As far as I can remember, our family has always had at least one pet. Some were cats, fishes or birds but most were dogs. Currently, we have 3 dogs who are a genearation apart from the last. Each has a distinct personality that makes me wonder if they aren't more intelligent than they let on.

When they look you in the eye, it's almost as if you can hear them talk. When you speak, it's almost as if they understand what you're saying - though they don't always listen! And when you feel happy or sad, they will walk up to you and let you know that they are there for you.

It's funny ut if you think about it, if animals are capable of love, theirs would be unconditional.

A New Member

This Christmas, I was introduced to a new member of our family: Hart Drew T. Baking

Christmas Porn

This comic made me wonder, what would you do if someone gave you something like this for Christmas?

http://www.somethingpositive.net/sp12232004.shtml

And So This is Christmas...

Christmas has finally arrived! The long wait is over. No present remains unopenned - except the ones I was supposed to give to the other people. I've eaten my fill of food which means I'll be greeting the New Year a few pounds heavier. *sigh* But overall, I think this Christmas was fairly good.

So, let's see, I've got new shoes from my mom, a calendar from my supervisor, some knicknacks, gift certificates and candies from various officemates and friends, a shirt from my cousin, money from my grandmother and nothing for myself...hmmm, I knew I forgot someone. Ah, well, I can always buy myself a gift at anytime.

As for what I've given away, there's a fruit cake for my aunt and uncle, money for another grandmother, DVDs for my supervisor, headbands, bags and wallets for my officemates (who almost all exclusively girls), candies and food for my friends, DVD of Lovers in Paris for my mom and money for my brother so he can buy a portable CB radio.

Starting Dec. 27, I'll be on leave until Jan. 2. I don't know what I'll be doing but I hope to spend time with my friends and buy some stuff for the other people I may have missed. The best time to go shopping for me has always been after Christmas. People are no longer rushing to buy presents and the prices are significantly cheaper.

I feel somewhat...disappointed. All through the advent season I was expecting something...magical to happen. Now that Christmas has come and gone, I wonder what it is I really expected to happen. The fact that I am alive and the people I care about are too should be enough, right?

Some people can't say the same after what happened with the earthquake and tsunami hitting various coastal areas of Southeast Asia. Or the death of people that seemed needless and wasteful. I have to wonder why this happened of all days. I don't want to say it's God's will because, quite frankly, I don't presume to know God's will. But the irony of it is that people are working together because of this tragedy.

Maybe there is a reason to it all...

Jumping the Gun

It's been a while since I last wrote here. I've been...busy. I guess there are just somethings I have difficulty talking to other people. It's not that I don't trust my friends or family. It's just that, well, when you're used to being the guy people call at 3am to pour their hearts out, you have to be strong for them. And being strong (at least to me) means not burdening them with my 3am calls.

Recently, I was supposed to meet someone for a date. It was our first time to see each other after having met on the Internet and talking on the phone. I went to our meeting place early (you know how I am about time and punctuality) because I didn't want her to wait long. I waited several hours but she didn't show up.

I was pissed, of course. She said she was going to be late and that I should wait for her because she was coming. A few hours after that, she didn't reply to my text messages and hung up on my calls. I didn't understand why but I assumed it was because she didn't "like" me.

It wouldn't be the first time. In fact, I'm surprised I haven't lost faith in people...no, that's not exactly true. I do have faith in people but up to a certain point - when they betray my trust. In which case I automaticlaly assume the worst and become cynical.

Anyway, I went home feeling like crap. I had sent her mean text messages that would have made the paint ont he wall peal. I was feeling self-destrcutive; I wanted to get drunk but I didn't like the taste of alcohol. Instead, I decided to call her up one last time. Her brother answered.

She was in a car accident.

She was staying at the hospital.

She asked if I could see her.

I felt like an idiot. I had assumed the worst when she was totally innocent of any crime. I stayed up all night, praying she would be ok and asking for forgiveness. I even had the crazy notion that it was all my fault. Maybe if I hadn't asked to see her that day or if hadn't told her to hurry, this wouldn't have happened.

Whatever the reason, it taught me a hard lesson. I just hope I learn it from now on.

I'm a Good Kisser

They say that if you take a cherry stem, place it in your mouth and tie it in a knot, you're a good kisser. Guess what? Hehehe!

Making a List

I'm trying to get into the Christmas spirit by making a list of things I want to buy. Not for myself but for the people I call friends and family. I'm trying to keep it all under budget. I realized last year that the best gifts are not the ones that come with a hefty price tag (although, that helps) but those that are personalized.

Now, if I could only get my hand on the Christmas bonus!

People Don't Like Me

I'm not surprised that some people don't like me. I can be a pain in the ass and I am not exempt from being stupid. People have their own tastes and if they don't find me palatable, then it's their problem. Can't help being who I am, can I?

Besides, the people who matter to me most like me enough to last the rest of my life.

I'm going to be a Supervisor!

I just spoke with a Team Manager last night and he has informed me that I will undergoing Supervisor Training hopefully in 2 weeks. He apologized for the delay. They would have promoted me sooner if only our team had sufficient coverage.

If this had happened a year ago, I'd be happier!